Unbearable Pain: My Battle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with intense discomfort around one eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, excruciating pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But leading specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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